This week… I say this all the time to my mom when she asks how my week was, but it’s been a week.
Monday: I had a child and family team meeting with the family that I want to hurt the most. I promise I’m not a bad person, but I have never wanted to kill a person before I met this family. Not only was this my first case of my career, but it’s a case that I’m very emotional attached too. Brief summary, the child was removed because the parents starved him to the point of failure to thrive. They are both very low functioning, and don’t understand why we removed to this day (it’s been 15 months). Anyways, I strongly dislike them because they’ve visited with this baby that they almost killed maybe 20 times (2 hours a visit) in the past 15 months… And they decided that going to this meeting, which is solely for them, is “pointless”. Thankfully we will be filing for termination of parental rights on April 11th, and I can’t wait.
Tuesday: Welp Tuesday was pretty chill. I spent that day writing a court report and saw my favorite family at the library.
Wednesday: Took the one family that I hate (talked about them in the monday section) to visit their child for the first time since February 3, 2019. But just the mom, the dad pretends to be working… Then I had recovery court at 12-3. Which is essentially a service for parents that are recovering addicts with an open CHINS (child in need of services) case. During that session one of my clients bold faced lied to the judge about a provider (whom I adore simply because she does her job) about communication between the two. It was infuriating. It shouldn’t surprise me because people who are actively using will lie to get anywhere… If you don’t know.
Thursday: Took said family that I dislike strongly to said child’s doctor’s appointment at Riley Hospital. It was weird because it was the normal, mother didn’t interact with baby, baby is strongly bonded to foster parent, and I was the medium between everyone to prevent awkwardness. New fun fact, I hate awkward situations and will do anything to prevent them. I’m also generally the happiest person in any situation at all times, that’s just me. Regardless of how I feel about what’s going on. So after the visit I was surpised that bio mother actually wanted to talk about the situation and ask me questions. After that I was at the office for most of the day. Had an awkward conversation with a resource parent about my thought concerning a case but once I got home I decided to get so drunk that during this post I kinda gave up because I couldn’t think right. But here I am again 🙂
Friday: That day hasn’t come yet. But I am supposed to go straight to St. Vincent hospital tomorrow for another medically fragile baby that may be on the road to adoption if the parents don’t get their shit together. Then after that, see a mother that I’m pretty sure is using Methamphetamine again but is on a trial home visit…. The struggle with that case is, she is passing her drug screens, but I’m nearly certain she is using again. But at the same time I know that her children are better with her than anyone else. It’s hard… Then I’m on call all weekend. Which is basically like wanting to kill yourself for real. So that’s why I’m currently drunk writing this post, because after this I have to be of sound mind and body for the betterment of others around me.
Another fun fact is I am very much into the marijuana game. I smoke every night (unless I’m on call) but best believe I wouldn’t tell any clients or my work that. If they ever drug tested me, I’d be fired immediately. But I need it to get away from the night terrors I face every night about my past trauma and clients. Don’t worry we’ll get into that soon enough.
But for now, I wish you all a wonderful evening and a good weekend.
Love, life as i know it.
life as I know it 